I'm losing it

[CradleCatholic]

Vetusordo That was a great response,are you a priest?

[VetusOrdo]

Vetusordo That was a great response,are you a priest?

No, my friend, I am not.

If the Good Lord should call me to be His servant and minister in His Church, I would be obliged. However, I'm just currently a (lay) sinner trying to work out his salvation with fear, trembling and some doubts along the way.

May God help merrycat, and all of us for that matter, never to despair and lose faith.

God bless you.

[Monica]

I said some Hail Marys for you. Hope things get better soon.

[Mommie2Boys]

[johnnyguitar]

See this for what it is: sin on your Husband's part, but you are going thru purification. You DEFINITELY have my prayers. I went thru a huge trial 20 years ago, and God brought me thru it...and it strengthened my faith in him IMMENSELY.

Going thru it, the pain was so bad that I gave up and told God to leave me.
I cursed him...but God didn't leave...he loved me, he stayed with me, got me thru it, and he will do the same for you. I think one of the best lessons I learned was that God's hand is not hindered by the evil that someone does to us, if we stick close to him.

I know you're hurting. Hang in there with our Blessed Lord...it's worth it. It really is.

[PaxVobiscum]

Please storm Heaven with prayers for me.  I'm losing my faith.  I can't pray today, all I can do is be angry and lash out at Him.  I'm even having trouble believing there really is a God.  I'm supposed to go to RCIA class tonight but I don't know if I can go listen to them tell me that God is merciful and loves me.  I can't take any more pain, physical, emotional or spiritual.  I keep thinking about my husband's affairs and I don't know if I can forgive.  I can't find a job and I can't pay my bills.  I have lost my patience after months of prayer and I'm even in the middle of a Rosary Novena Devotion, but I don't know if I have the strength to keep going.  I'm really losing it so please please pray for me.  Storm Heaven. 

Please see my post in your thread "Why Pray?" for some things that have helped me.  I will pray for you.

[merrycat]

Why can't I just believe in God and trust in Him and Jesus? Why am I struggling with this so very hard? All I want to do is believe and trust and have faith so that even in the midst of my struggles and my trials I will have peace knowing that everything is going to be okay and will go according to His will. Instead I am conflicted, scared, hurt, betrayed, anxious, fearful and have no peace at all. I am afraid that whatever is wrong with me that no one can diagnose is going to kill me. I've been hurting so badly the last few days. The pain of my husband's affairs is making me so depressed I can't even function. Why am I not letting God in to comfort me? Why am I not accepting Jesus' peace and healing? Why am I having problems even believing there is a God? Right now I should be leaning on Him more heavily than I ever have in my life, but instead I am turning away. I don't think I'm angry at Him because of all the problems in my life, I just don't think I truly believe He's there. I don't even know if I can go through with RCIA and getting confirmed at Easter time. I want it, but I can't do it if I'm not sure I believe with all my heart. I pray constantly, but I'm not finding the peace I need. Maybe my call back to the church was only to get my husband and my kids to come back to God. They are happily involved and they are feeling very peaceful about their journey to Christ, but I am feeling so very conflicted and afraid and I just can't find the peace of the Holy Spirit. God isn't speaking directly to me. Maybe he's speaking to me through other people but I'm just not recognizing it. I guess I just want Him to come to me directly the way He did to my husband in His dream/visitation. I just don't know what to do anymore. Please just keep praying for me because I don't know if I can keep praying for myself. Ask God to give me the true conversion experience I need because I'm obviously too weak to make it on my own.

[viking]

Perhaps you should read "dark night of the soul"

If you have a hard time praying, it might be good to just talk to God about how you feel, and pray some prayers others have written, e.g some by St. Thomas Aquinas.

[Varus]

I went through a VERY rough time with depression and other problems myself last spring.
It was hell on earth, believe me, but I got through it.
My faith was also shaken beyond belief at that time, and I felt like I was deep down in a pit where nobody could see me and God turned away from me. Is this how you feel? 
For a while, I couldn't pray and I was angry at God for putting me through it all. I blamed myself for past mistakes and all the stupid things I've done and was on the brink of doing what one must not do.....

What I did and what solved everything, was a novena to St. Jude.
It was crazy, but the day after the last day of the novena, I woke up and it was all gone.... I'm serious and totally honest! The fear I could sometimes feel in the aftermath, was really nothing in comparison to what had been.

I'll pray for you.
May God bless you and carry you through it all.